| I heard somewhere its good to keep a journal. It has been a long time since i wrote in this. I went back and read all of my old post, most of it was pretty entertaining, some parts made me laugh and some parts made me feel like I haven't done as much as I should have. That I let a few things in my life hinder my growth as an individual. but none the less I have grown and I like the person who I am today, but nobody is completely satisfied with themselves. In this blog I am going to recap my life from the last post I put in here. and then maybe I'll decide to keep on writing. I think the logical place to start is after high school. So at that point in my life i was 18 years old, now dating my best friend at the time Ashley Kimura and enrolled at mission college to study fire technology. I went to mission for 3 semesters when I realized that fire fighting wasn't the thing for me. While attending mission I worked at jobs such as century theaters, Crate and Barrel, petsmart and sports authority. I spent a lot of my spare time smoking weed and drinking. Somehow I managed to do pretty well in school and work. To be honest the past 2 years or so have been kinda crazy. A lot of time spent on wasteful things, like smoking and partying. But I believe most people in life go through this phase. There aren't too many good things I can say about mine and ashleys relationship. We probably should have stayed broken up the first time i broke up with her. That is one of my main wastes in life. A totally dysfunctional relationship. but we have since broken up and I am a much better person now because of it. I think that time frame in my life It seemed I was stuck. No real progression in character. no real role models in life. No real goals achieved. I don't think that i wasted this entire time, but their could have been some better productivity. After mission, I thought i would try Law Enforcement again, which was a mistake. I went to evergreen for 2 semesters. and then dropped out for a semester. At this time I was working at sports authority as the Warehouse Lead, which was one of my favorite jobs i've ever had. but still a waste of time. The summer of my 20th year was a pretty good party time. Oh yeah, I wrecked my firebird coming home from work at crate and barrel one night racing my brother. One of the stupidest things i've done in my life. that was when I was 18 or 19. I Do not keep track of time really well. my memory is pretty fucked. but after that I drove around a 98 mustang which i hated, but it got me where i needed to go. I must have drove that car for a year or so until i got my camaro, which made my life insane. I mean i loved the camaro but without it I would have done different things. I was still living at home making an alright amount of money and spending most of it on nothing good. but yeah, around this time before i got my camaro, I dated a girl in frisco which was insane, and attempted to move out which didn't work and ultimately lead to the camaro. Ashley and I must of broken up around 7 times in our entire relationship. and around this time was the longest, both of us were dating other people. But alas, as my poor self digresses again we end up back together. I think I will bring this story to the present now. Ashley and I broke up around 6 months ago I think. Again my memory is shit, haha. and some dickhole crashed into me totally my camaro. In the past 6 months I have grown more then I have in the past 2 years. So I now drive a cougar which I like, and I still have the camaro. We fixed it up. But for close to a year now I have worked for my dad doing HVAC and I love it. I have changed colleges again to Sjcc and am pursuing an AS degree in air cond. But I am so sick and tired of school by now its not even funny. I still live at home but we will most likely be moving soon. My parents are trying to buy a house which means the house i've lived in all my life will be gone. I don't really care either way as long as I still live in san jose. In the past 2 months i have quit smoking weed and I can honestly say I am a better person now. My drinking habits are completely tamed and I am in control of myself and know my limits. My knowledge of the world has profoundly increased. I have more of a worldly wisdom some might say. I haven't been this happy as a person in a long time. With all of that said I am going to to leave you with a quote that has helped me out in the past years. "It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt."-- Mark Twain. |
